Quotes by Natalie Standiford

I didnt want to die. I just found death soothing to think about.

No amount of wishing will bring back the dead.

its more a trance, jonah said. the whole world is pressing in on me, like a weight on my chest, slowly pushing me down ans down. and theres nothing between me and this weight but my flimsy skin. Its not enough. It wont protect me. It doesnt keep anything out. The outside will keep pressing until my ribs are crushed.

If youd only let me come by myself, none of this would have happened. Having you around makes everything worse.She buried her head under her pillow. Stop it! youre so cold! Youre heartless, you little robot! The pillow muffled her words, but they still

What else could have happened? Car wouldnt start? House caught on fire? Escaped convict climbed through his bedroom window and tied him with duct tape? Poison eggnog? Or maybe I just didnt matter to him.

She decided that day to study Russian, the language of violence, terror, and absurdity. She knew she would never be bored.

The students adore your father, a perfumed woman said to me. Arent you lucky to live with such a charming man!Hes even more charming at home, Mom said. Isnt he, Bea? He rides a unicycle through the house -- even up and down the stairs, I added.He juggles eggs as he makes breakfast every morning -- which he serves to us in bed of course, I said.- and pulls fragrant bouquets out of his ass, Mom finished.Hes just a joy.

I might have been made of metal once, but not anymore. Like Pinocchio, Id turned into a real girl. So far it sucked. But there was nothing I could do about it.

I think ghostliness is a good quality. I pretend Im dead all the time. What? He stopped rummaging through his locker to look at me full in the face a last.It helps me go to sleep, I said.That shows you dont know anything about death, Jonah said.Do you? I asked. He hesitated before saying Im a g-g-g-ghost, arent I? I think being dead might be nice. Restful.Death is not restful. Its nothing.Thats what seems restful to me, I said. The nothing. Not being here. Not being anywhere.

But why? Why do you care about our class’s history? I just do. Besides, I need something to put on my art-school applications besides ’Locks self in room and draws all day.’ Even art schools won’t take a psychopath.

Laura, this isnt love. Love lets you go on a trip without following you. Love can live without you for a week, knowing youll come back.No, it cant. The afternoon shadows grew long and cold. In spite of the chill, a heat rose up inside her and flooded her face. Thats how you know its true love. When he cant live without you.Karen shook her head. Thats how you know its obsession. Or something else.

“No amount of wishing will bring back the dead.”

“I didnt want to die. I just found death soothing to think about.”