“A little work, a little sleep, a little love and its all over”
He filled the stockings bravely, an
orange in each toe, a box of candy, a toy for old time's sake, and then
the little knickknacks he had been gathering for days and hiding in
his desk. After all, there were no fewer stockings this year than last.
Instead of Jim's there was the tiny one for Nina's baby. That was the
way things went. He took away, but also He gave.
He sat back in his deep chair, and looked up at the stockings,
ludicrously bulging. After all, if he believed that He gave and took
away, then he must believe that Jim was where he had tried to think him,
filling a joyous, active place in some boyish heaven.
After a while he got up and went to his desk, and getting pen and paper
wrote carefully.
"Dearest: You will find this in your stocking in the morning, when you
get up for the early service. And I want you to think over it in the
church. It is filled with tenderness and with anxiety. Life is not so
very long, little daughter, and it has no time to waste in anger or in
bitterness. A little work, a little sleep, a little love, and it is all
over.
"Will you think of this to-day?"
He locked up the house, and went slowly up to bed. Elizabeth found the
letter the next morning. She stood in the bleak room, with the ashes of
last night's fire still smoking, and the stockings overhead not festive
in the gray light, but looking forlorn and abandoned. Suddenly her eyes,
dry and fiercely burning for so long, were wet with tears. It was true.
It was true. A little work, a little sleep, a little love. Not the
great love, perhaps, not the only love of a man's life. Not the love of
yesterday, but of to-day and to-morrow.
All the fierce repression of the last weeks was gone. She began to
suffer. She saw Dick coming home, perhaps high with hope that whatever
she knew she would understand and forgive. And she saw herself failing
him, cold and shut away, not big enough nor woman enough to meet him
half way. She saw him fighting his losing battle alone, protecting David
but never himself; carrying Lucy to her quiet grave; sitting alone in
his office, while the village walked by and stared at the windows; she
saw him, gaining harbor after storm, and finding no anchorage there.
“The great God endows His children variously. To some he gives intellect -- and they move the earth. To some he allots heart -- and the beating pulse of humanity is theirs. But to some He gives only a soul, without intelligence -- and these, who never grow up, but remain always His children, are Gods fools, kindly, elemental, simple, as if from His palette the Artist of all had taken one color instead of many.”
"It is hard work," said Miss Smith--having made a note that the boys
in the children's ward must be restrained from lowering a pasteboard
box on a string from a window--"hard work without sentiment. It is
not a romantic occupation."
She waved an admonitory hand toward the window, and the box went up
swiftly. The applicant looked again toward the pavilion, where
Billy Grant, having kissed the Nurse's hands, had buried his face in
her two palms.
The mild October sun shone down on the courtyard, with its bandaged
figures in wheel-chairs, its cripples sunning on a bench, their
crutches beside them, its waterless fountain and dingy birds.
The applicant thrilled to it all--joy and suffering, birth and
death, misery and hope, life and love. Love!
The H.N. turned to her grimly, but her eyes were soft.
"All this," she said, waving her hand vaguely, "for eight dollars a
month!"
"I think," said the applicant shyly, "I should like to come."
GOD'S FOOL
I
The great God endows His children variously. To some He gives
intellect--and they move the earth. To some He allots heart--and the
beating pulse of humanity is theirs. But to some He gives only a
soul, without intelligence--and these, who never grow up, but remain
always His children, are God's fools, kindly, elemental, simple, as
if from His palette the Artist of all had taken one colour instead
of many.
The Dummy was God's fool. Having only a soul and no intelligence, he
lived the life of the soul. Through his faded, childish old blue
eyes he looked out on a world that hurried past him with, at
best, a friendly touch on his shoulder. No man shook his hand in
comradeship. No woman save the little old mother had ever caressed
him. He lived alone in a world of his own fashioning, peopled by
moving, noiseless figures and filled with dreams--noiseless because
the Dummy had ears that heard not and lips that smiled at a
kindness, but that did not speak.
In this world of his there was no uncharitableness--no sin. There
was a God--why should he not know his Father?--there were brasses to
clean and three meals a day; and there was chapel on Sunday, where
one held a book--the Dummy held his upside down--and felt the
vibration of the organ, and proudly watched the afternoon sunlight
smiling on the polished metal of the chandelier and choir rail.
* * * * *
The Probationer sat turning the bandage machine and watching the
Dummy, who was polishing the brass plates on the beds.
“I never saw a lawyer yet who would admit he was making money”
He was sandy-haired,
inclined to be bald, and with shrewd, light blue eyes behind his
glasses. Not particularly impressive, except as to size, on first
acquaintance; a good fellow, with a brisk voice, and an amazingly light
tread.
He began by sending Wardrop into a sort of examining room in the rear of
the suite somewhere, to take off his coat and collar. When he had gone
the doctor looked at a slip of paper in his hand.
"I think I've got it all from Mr. Burton," he said. "Of course, Mr.
Knox, this is a little out of my line; a nerve specialist has as much
business with psychotherapy as a piano tuner has with musical technique.
But the idea is Munsterburg's, and I've had some good results. I'll give
him a short physical examination, and when I ring the bell one of you
may come in. Are you a newspaper man, Mr. Knox?"
"An attorney," I said briefly.
"Press man, lawyer, or doctor," Burton broke in, "we all fatten on the
other fellow's troubles, don't we?"
"We don't fatten very much," I corrected "We live."
The doctor blinked behind his glasses.
"I never saw a lawyer yet who would admit he was making money," he said.
"Look at the way a doctor grinds for a pittance! He's just as capable as
the lawyer; he works a damn sight harder, and he makes a tenth the
income. A man will pay his lawyer ten thousand dollars for keeping him
out of jail for six months, and he'll kick like a steer if his doctor
charges him a hundred to keep him out of hell for life! Which of you
will come in? I'm afraid two would distract him."
"I guess it is Knox's butt-in," Burton conceded, "but I get it later,
Doctor; you promised."
The physical examination was very brief; when I was called in Wardrop
was standing at the window looking down into the street below, and the
doctor was writing at his desk. Behind Wardrop's back he gave me the
slip he had written.
"Test is for association of ideas. Watch length of time between
word I give and his reply. I often get hold of facts forgotten
by the patient. A wait before the answering word is given shows
an attempt at concealment."
"Now, Mr.
“Women are like dogs really. They love like dogs, a little insistently. And they like to fetch and carry and come back wistfully after hard words, and learn rather easily to carry a basket.”
“Its the safety valve of middle life, and the solace of age”
“Men deceive themselves; they look back on the children who were once themselves, and attempt to reconstruct them. But they can no longer think like the child . . .”
“I hate those men who would send into war youth to fight and die for them; the pride and cowardice of those old men, making their wars that boys must die.”
War is not two great armies meeting in the clash and frenzy of battle. War is a boy being carried on a stretcher, looking up at God’s blue sky with bewildered eyes that are soon to close; war is a woman carrying a child that has been injured by a shell; war is spirited horses tied in burning buildings and waiting for death; war is the flower of a race, battered, hungry, bleeding, up to its knees in filthy water; war is an old woman burning a candle before the Mater Dolorsa for the son she has given.
In my criminal work anything that wears skirts is a lady, until the law proves her otherwise. From the frayed and slovenly petticoats of the woman who owns a poultry stand in the market and who has grown wealthy by selling chickens at twelve ounces to the pound, or the silk sweep of Mamie Tracy, whose diamonds have been stolen down on the avenue...
Her eyes filled. He forgot my birthday, two weeks ago, she said. It was the first one he had ever forgotten, in nineteen of them. Nineteen! Nineteen from thirty-five leaves sixteen!
To be kind to all to like many and love a few to be needed and wanted by those we love is certainly the nearest we can come to happiness.
Love is like the measles. The older you get it the worse the attack.
The world doesnt come to the clever folks it comes to the stubborn obstinate one-idea-at-a-time people.
I never saw a lawyer yet who would admit he was making money.