Quotes by Emery Lord

And thats why I dont get to cry, I guess. Because they do. Because were older but were not the grown-ups who seem too far away to understand. I tuck that thought inside me, warm and small like balled hands inside hoodie pockets. Beneath the beech trees and sugar maples, feet crunching against dead leaves, I hope for strength. Because as much as I want to be the one crying, I want to be the kind of person someone can hold onto.

And I want to be one of them. I want to be one of them so, so badly - to fit into this balance, their history, the wolf pack way of them. I see it now, why my mom wants that for me. I see how you cant help but want it, if you get close enough to witness a group of friends knitted together like this.

Im looking for somekind of permanence, so my mark will linger on the world once Im gone, in the places where I found joy.. -Page 81

You can ache for where you come from, and its homesickness. A relationship, and its heartbreak. But is there a word for missing your friends like that?

Im looking for some kind of permanence, so my mark will linger on the world once Im gone, in the places where I found joy..

Whose empire did you just overthrow? My own.

Well, you change as you get older, especially at this time in your life. You become more yourself, hopefully. And sometimes that changes the dynamic, even with people you love. So its not that you were wrong. You were right for that time. But you grow up and you grow out of relationships. Even the ones you thought, at one point, might be forever.

After all, once there was a girl named Lucy who loved her family, old and new.Its not the type of love that ends.

Darkness might keep flooding in, but I finally had just enough light to find the way back to myself.

My dark days made me strong. Or maybe I already was strong, and they made me prove it.

To the deepest, most cellular level of my being, I resent people who believe that depression is the same as weakness, that sad people must be coddled like helpless toddlers.

I know this feeling of being a ghost in your own life - no one sees you, no one feels you, so you stay still as if you could actually disappear at any moment.

I see it all through the lens of my camera—the flurry of movement, the venue staff in black T-shirts, giving orders into their headsets. As I take it all in, my mind weighs the texture, the composition, the possibility of each changing scene, and I struggle to hold back, to keep my finger from pressing too soon. That’s my biggest flaw as a photographer. I’m impatient—trigger-happy. I want the shot now, now, now, click, click, click, and if I could just wait a second more, the moment would really flourish.

I want to reach back into my history with a grade-school pink eraser, scrubbing away my decisions like mistakes on a math test. To bad I drew my mistakes in ink.

I want to reach back into my history with a grade-school pink eraser, scrubbing away my decisions like mistakes on a math test. Too bad I drew my mistakes in ink.

I think its the bravest thing in the world - to run straight at love, even knowing how badly you could get hurt.

I dont appreciated how often people hide their scars and doubts. Really, its not fair to people who are struggling, to go on believing that everyone else just has it totally together and never has one bad thought in their lives.

In friendship, we are all debtors. We all owe each other for a thousand small kindnesses, for little moments of grace in the chaos.

Laughter feels like our flotation device -- it wont pull us out of the storm, but it might carry us through, if we can just hang on.

So far away, but so beautiful. So powerful. I can always feel it tugging at me.