Quotes by C. JoyBell C.

If what you are able to give to others, in this life, is only proportionate to what you received from people in your past— it only means one thing. You are a victim of lifes circumstances, a direct and utter equivalent of what has been done to you. Rise above and become more! Be better than what happened to you.

You just go a little crazy, you know. Sometimes. And why? Well only because your soul is just too big for you, it flies away somehow.

Today I wondered why my eyelashes arent thick enough and why my feet arent small enough. Then it hit me. Why do we take these insignificant things like millimeters on lashes and shoeboxes and then try to fit ourselves into those stupid molds? Why do I take the beauty that is me, and measure it up to a shoe size? A length of hair on my eyes? Am I not the more wonderful creation, far more great than those stupid things? Why do we take ourselves and desecrate ourselves daily? Pushing ourselves into cubicles because we think we are supposed to fit into them? Are we ice cubes? And suddenly I just dont understand the inadequacies anymore! Because theyre not even inadequacies, at all! I will laugh and be beautiful.

Because she looks to the sky so often, people think that her life is sweet, that her eyes are dotted with dreamy stars. But quite the opposite is true and I wish they could see— she looks up so much because all around her its hard to see without breaking her heart. She once saw in a movie a window sign that said Were all in the gutter; but some of us are looking at the stars. From that movie onwards, she decided to look up! Doesnt mean her life is sweet, doesnt mean her eyes are dotted with dreamy stars.

Life is short, and thats why, I dont test people; because we all fail tests sometimes, but that is supposed to be okay! I dont play games with people; because people arent toys. And I dont risk what I dont want to lose; because if I do lose it, its definitely my loss and not theirs! How short is life, you ask me. Well, life is as short as one drop in eternity. I swim in a single drop in this basin of eternal waters, and after that drop evaporates, its gone! But then you could argue that if life is just a drop, then why even bother? Well, yes it is a drop, but its a meaningful drop, an unforgettable drop, and a beautiful one! Its so unforgettable, that when you come back again, if you choose to, you will remember it in your dreams at night! So you see, I dont test people, I dont play games, and I dont risk who and what I dont want to lose.

Lots of people are born into lives that feel like a journey in the very middle of a big ship on familiar seas; they sit comfortably, crossing their legs, they know when the sun will rise and when the moon will wane, they have plans that they follow, they have a map! But then there are those of us, a few, who are born into lives that feel like standing at the very top of the ships stern; we have to stand up, hold on tight for dear life, we never know when the waves will rock and we never know where the sun will set or when the moon will wane! Nothing follows the laws of common nature and we live in a wild, wild awakening and the only map we have is the map of the stars! Were called to see the lighting tear at the horizon, were chosen to roar with the tempests, but were also the first ones to see the suns rise, the first ones to watch the moons form anew! There is nothing ordinary, nothing at all. But neither are we! And we wouldnt want it any other way!

The one who is born of the earth, dreams of the sky. The one who is born of the sky, dreams of the earth.

People have this dream of being unreachable. They build a name for themselves and then finally fulfill their dream of being more important. Which just shows they were born from down below. Because when youre born from up above, your dreams have nowhere to go but downwards! And you dream of doing things in order to meet people, to know them, to understand the smallest importances!

I dont understand why people care so much about showing that they are good; because I am rather comfortable with having badness, quite okay with being inexplicable. They tire themselves so. The light is beautiful; but light cant hide treasures like the darkness can.

You get that one chance; and damn it, you’ve got to take it! If there’s one lesson I know I will take with me for eternity, its that there are those things that might happen only once, those chances that come walking down the street, strolling out of a café; if you don’t let go and take them, they really could get away! We can get so washed out with a mindset of entitlement– the universe will do everything for us to ensure our happiness– that we forget why we came here! We came here to grab, to take, to give, to have! Not to wait! Nobody came here to wait! So, what makes anyone think that destiny will keep on knocking over and over again? It could, but what if it doesn’t? You go and you take the chance that you get; even if it makes you look stupid, insane, or whorish! Because it just might not come back again. You could wait a lifetime to see if it will...but I don’t think you should.

I have just lost my reason for fighting so hard. How do I go on now, without my thing to fight for? And he whispered into my ear, he said: Maybe its time to stop fighting.

Please do not break your heart over the withering of a dream you once held, that never became yours! After all, the shattered dream could have very well been a nightmare and not a dream at all, you wouldnt really know because you didnt have it yet! Let the sparks fade, let the flame dim and die, youll never know it wasnt poison.

She laughs an honest laugh... one that puts the fakes on edge and makes them dream of being better.

And thats when I heard the whisper in my hearts ear: Its not about your childhood. Its about who you are!

She has a serene, glowing disposition. She looks at you and the rest of the world through the eyes of a lynx and is always mysterious, possibly because she always harbours those hidden laughs just beneath her lips. She’s always ready to laugh.

Theres that margin of error that you allow to exist in your mind, you want to give everything the benefit of the doubt, you want to look at another person and say maybe we could be friends and thats all well at first, but then you have to reach that point in your life, wherein you dont have time to live on the margins of error, and you have to say, so what if there is a margin of error that exists? I dont think that this person and I could walk down the same path together, because shes like that, and Im like this; I must relieve myself of fearing the error, the what could have been. You know, sometimes we can be so afraid of the what could have been that we overlook the right here and now! And end up forsaking who we are and what makes us happy, and what we want and dont want! There is an error that takes place; when living too much for the what could have been. There comes a time when you must give YOURSELF the benefit of the doubt! Know thyself. Color-in those margins of error with your favorite color; make them your own, make them work for you, let them be in your favor!

If you want to change the way that the world appears to be; you must change the way that you see everything in it. And if you want to change the world; you must change the way everyone else sees everything in it. And when everyone else sees everything in the world in a new way, the world will be changed and then mankind will turn their faces to the heavens in search of a brand new vision and then it will be able to see the heavens for what the heavens really are! That being because, in order for a person to change how he sees the world, he must first change the eyes of his soul and it is with those new eyes that man can look at the sun, that man can see the heavens, that man can know God. Then it is with these newfound truths that humanity will continue to live, but living by walking in a new reality.

Previously, as I went through life, I was in full belief of the concept of blending (I was fully convinced that I as a person am completely capable of blending myself in the accordance of friendship, in order to give respect to the differences between people and in order for others to feel that I respect them). However, I have come to learn at this time in my life, that such an attitude is all good for a while, but then there does come a point where you must see and identify yourself; also see and identify others! You have to be able to identify yourself as someone who is made happy by this and as someone who doesnt like that; then when you meet people, discern if those same things are the things that make them happy and if those same things are the things that they dont like, because at a point in time it becomes beneficial to you, to not waste time on blending in behalf of virtue but rather it becomes beneficial to you, to see yourself and go into the direction that makes you happy, taking people with you that are already going in that same direction and who also do not like the things that you do not like. At the end of the day, there are those paths in life, and you have to take one of them, you cant walk down all of them.

Eros (or call it lust if you will), is like a beautiful, magnificent Afghan Hound! A pure white Afghan Hound commanding respect and honor! But if you take the Afghan Hound and lock it in a small cage, shun it and look upon it badly, treat it as a pestilence and wish that it would die; that same creature of beauty will become a vile, unrepentant, dark creature of the shadows! Untrusting, hidden in the corner, aggressive... something that will harm others and yourself! But is this the nature of the creature, is this the fault of the creature? Or are YOU the one who has created the monster that it has become? And this is my philosophy: that we are both corporeal and incorporeal beings, therefore, the same amount of good intent MUST be given to both our soul and our body!

The most fundamental, basic need in magick, is the development of the will. The magus says, “I will, and not heaven nor hell can stop me.” It is in this forming and growing, creating, of the will, where heaven and hell learns to follow the will of the magus. A person who wants to develop the soul must never say, “Maybe” or “If I see a sign” because the master creates his own signs. If you need a star to align in front of a tree because that to you would be a sign, then you make the star align with the tree, if not in this world, in the other worlds and in the other dimensions. There are no “ifs” and there are no “maybes” there are only “I wills.” This is the basic platform of magick, and most people never get past it, because not all can.